You know that New Year’s enthusiasm when you can feel optimism pumping through your veins?
You know when you start on your inspired journey and everything looks amazing...until it doesn’t?
A little behind the scenes realness: I was on my way to film the Intro to Qoya Workshop with Popexpert. This was a big deal for me. San Francisco. Lights. Camera. Action. They believe in my content, and are going to shoot, edit and produce the videos so I can share my message with the world. Everything was all arranged for the shoot - and then I “accidentally” poured hot water on my chest a couple days before, and had to change all my outfits so nothing would show below my burned collarbone.
Last week, I hired an amazing filmmaker to shoot, direct, and edit a video project to make heaps of Qoya movement videos, a new introductory video, and to plant seeds for a Kickstarter video to help with the launch of my book (all coming in 2015 - stay tuned). Right before our shoot, I “slept wrong” and had the most intense neck pain as I was preparing to film myself doing movement all day for 4 days of filming!
It’s almost funny.
At 11:50pm New Year’s Eve, I impulsively turned to my dear friend and said, “Let’s drive to the beach and be under the moon and stars at midnight!” We hopped in my car for a 4-minute drive. I said, “Perfect, we can put all my songs on shuffle, and ask for a song that wraps up 2014.”
Enter Tom Petty:
“Well, I won't back down.
No, I won't back down.
You can stand me up at the gates of hell,
But I won't back down.”
That felt about right. We thought back on the year and all the trials and tribulations and ending of relationships and health scares and tragedies and losses and struggles, and were awake to our own resilience. In that moment, it felt like the willingness to continue whole-heartedly aligned with our soul’s truth is the only path to take, though it’s a path that requires endurance.
How to navigate the challenges when they arise? Prioritize your passion or like Joseph Campbell says, “Follow your bliss.”
The bliss for me comes when there is time and space to embody, dance with, and honor things exactly as they are. The mind will judge and analyze the past or predict and worry about the future, but you can bypass that through deep breath and physical sensation of now. To understand this, you can also read "The Big Leap" by Gay Hendricks which talks about how common it is to resist and experience challenges whenever you're expanding and growing.
The happiness you seek is the fulfillment that rests in your bones and the thrill of simply being alive - not a list of justifications and proof of their importance. Nope, it’s when you close your eyes, take a deep breath, and remember.
Every word I write you is with the intention and hope that I inspire you to get up off your desk chair and move. Because it is through movement that we remember.
I wish I could promise you enlightenment, love, bliss, freedom and eternal peace on this path of the dancing heart, but that would be what we call spiritual marketing. Look around at this world of paradox. Look into your own life filled with BOTH blessings and challenges. There is a beauty to it. A magic to it. A privilege to be a witness of the playground that allows so many contrasting and oppositional energies to interplay. Courage to feel and experience it all is required.
"But if in your fear, you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.”
Love is enough. To remember is enough. To take a deep breath and dance is enough.
If and when that voice of love guides you to explore more training with Qoya, we look forward to dancing with you.
If you aren’t sure how to listen to that voice of love, Qoya movement will be a great way to begin the journey. You can do the online Qoya workshop, or join us in person for a weekend Qoya retreat in Central California (Feb 20-22, 2015) or a week-long retreat in Costa Rica (April 4-11, 2015).
Blessings for a beautiful new year, and remember what Rumi says, “What you seek is seeking you.” As much as you are looking to remember, remembering is looking for you too.
p.s. To pump yourself up, listen to this song, dance around and honor the resilient part of you that also won't back down, because you know love always wins: